I know it's been awhile since I've written. I still kind of write in my personal journal. It's mostly making plans on how to pay of my bills, life plans, and what I want to accomplish.

Been noticing a lot of growth and maturity with myself lately. Talking about the past reminds me how much I've learned from those moments. How they no longer haunt me. Basically, I've gotten over it. It takes all those bad things, memories, events and things you let happen to you that DO shape your decisions and choices in the future.

why is the sound of my parents talking so annoying? they're not even fighting.. they're just talking. oh Christmas. Gathering all of us together to annoy each other.

I'm trying to figure out what i should do for my birthday, if i should apply for my CMT state license, buy work out equipment, and new clothes/shoes.

I feel like I should enjoy time with my parents but I really dread it. I think it's because they can never be satisfied they always find faults in everything. Why can't some people just be happy? Maybe it's also because I dont understand the reasoning behind some of the things they do.

For my birthday I'm thinking
Lake Tahoe
SD's wild animal park

Now, my mom's asking for a massage. this is pure torture. pure torture.